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Is life just a game? Just a series of lessons? Or is there more to it? Do I need to dig deeper?

Published May 28, 2020 by Laura Crean Author

Is life just a game? Just a series of lessons? Or is there more to it?  Do I need to dig deeper?

If you are a Christian or a gamer or maybe a Christian gamer or just part of the game of life – read on… (also included if you follow the links Sonic the Hedgehog Trailer and other gaming and book links)

It’s OK to say I have experienced a lot of pain and trauma in my life and I need to learn from it and grow, but what does that look like?  If we have to learn something then that implies that the pain and trauma, the suffering and hardship is a teacher, right?  Well, the thing with having a teacher is, you are and I am the students.  And at some point the student has to learn, grow up and move on and become the teacher – so what does that look like?

Well, as I said, if the teacher is pain and suffering, well that’s what the teacher looks like!  That paints a picture in my mind of Jesus on the cross.  And if life is just like a game and a series of lessons to be learned, then life also is a teacher, right?  We are all in this together – the teachers teaching the students and the students becoming the teachers and so the cycle continues…and life may be a game but we are all characters in that game – without the characters, there is no game and the game would have no meaning.

This week I have been at home on annual leave, trying to take stock a little.  Trying to look inwards and see where I am going.  I started off the week worrying about all the things I thought I should be doing while I had the ‘time’ – gardening, house hold chores, writing my novel, catching up with art projects, paying bills…and the list went on!  Until I felt like it was more stressful to be not out working that actually out working.  So I stopped that and I can’t get that lost time worrying back but I can learn from it.

Now, it’s helpful to have metaphors to use to look at ourselves and our journeys, and I’ve used those metaphors in my art and writing as all artists do.  ‘The Realm of the Purple Dragon’ was a way for me to express myself in a time when I needed some healing.  “There is a time and a season to everything under heaven.” Ecclesiastes 3:1 – It’s just a children’s book.  A fun, I think clever, light-hearted story for children (for my inner child who needed it at the time).  And aren’t we all just children at heart?

Lately I have been thinking of just abandoning all the creative stuff that I try to ‘put out into the world’ and just focus writing my blogs as a way to talk to my children.  Sending them to them as personal emails, because I have come to the conclusion that this is all that matters at the end of the day after all – our connection to our children.  And in the same way, our connection to our Heavenly Father as his children!  Because as much as we want to think that we make a huge impact on the world and the global consciousness and effect change on a grand scale by our efforts – that’s just our egos talking.  Maybe a very few do have some impact, but in the most part we are all just tiny parts of a big machine.  We are all just players, programmed and running around the program doing what we have been programmed to do.  And unfortunately the world we are living in is computer gaming on steroids!

If you know me you know I like to learn from my dreams.  The symbolism I see in dreams and the world are a language that seems to communicate to me.  I like to think it is a conversation I have with my creator, and prayer I have found, for me anyway, certainly does get responses or answers, some answers are more profound than others, and sometimes it is loud and clear but more often than not it is harder to hear.  But I continue listening all the same.  Well last night I dreamed I had these huge embarrassing hairs on my chin – which does happen by the way, but these whiskers or hairs in the dream were huge, like hedgehog spines!  Bear with me, this is all related to the game metaphor, I swear…

Recently, last week actually, I watched the new Sonic the Hedgehog movie because when I was in my twenties and a young mother, that was the game we played with our children; apart from Spyro, which is what inspired ‘The Realm of the Purple Dragon’.  But sonic was harder to play in a way, even though it was a simple concept, because it is a fast game.  You have to think on your feet as it were and make quick decisions with obstacles.  It is essentially a race.  You run around like a loony collecting gold rings and trying to get to the end as quickly as possible.  But with that fast pace game (another metaphor for our fast paced living perhaps) you can’t slow down to look at the scenery – to observe the beauty of the artistry of the game’s background design.  And sometimes you also miss the hidden places where treasure is to be found!  Maybe that’s part of what the dream was trying to tell me; to slow down and smell the flowers so to speak.  To sit quietly and look for the treasure in this game of life; to talk to the kids, to read my bible and seek wisdom (God’s hidden treasure in his word) to re-charge my batteries and to have some fun; some joy and peace in the moments.

And what of the spines?  Those hard thorn like follicles of hair on my dream self’s chin?  What message is trying to be conveyed here?  Well, these spines represent a beard firstly.  So a beard, what does that conjure up in my mind?  Well, perhaps as we think of men as wearing beards, it must represent masculinity, strength, power and perhaps wisdom – as the longer you grow a beard, the older and wiser you should technically be!  The image of the statue “The Thinker” also springs to mind.  Stroking your chin or beard or leaning on your chin may be an indication of deep thinking; perhaps wisdom again?  Also hair represents a covering, a protection of vulnerability, more power!  –   To be honest I’m not entirely sure what this imagery is trying to tell me!  Maybe I am spending too much time running around like Sonic the Hedgehog trying to keep myself safe, looking too deeply at things?  Trying to do it all myself under my own strength –  maybe I need to look deeper?  After all those hard spines could be used as a weapon – so maybe that is my strength – my wisdom and power!  Well what do I consider to be wise?  Knowledge worth having?  The only knowledge and wisdom I consider of any worth is that found in the word of God. 

And so this week I am listening inwardly at that quiet conversation between my God and myself and paying attention to the signs.  He says, “stop trying to run around like a loony doing things under your own steam, you’ll only burn yourself out!  Remember that I am in control and have the controller in my expert hands.  After all I designed this game and I know where you are going, even if you don’t” and “I am for you not against you”.  “I want you to win!  And you will win.  It’s just a matter of letting me play out the game.”

So as God takes the controller and I run on under his steam not my own; I can sit back and look at the scenery, the awesome design that I am a part of and keep my eyes open for the hidden treasures as I go.  And as I learn the secrets of the game – become the teacher and pass on those little cheats, those little nuggets of wisdom to my children, perhaps I can pass them on to you too through my writing and my art.  That’s my power, the gifts that God has given me after all, so I shall power up and get on with it.  But not this week.  This week I’m on holiday in my garden – well that’s how you have to roll in this lock down world we are living in.  And yes, I will stop to smell the roses!

Are you Awake?

Published January 26, 2020 by Laura Crean Author

What do you think being awake means? A little talk about Spiritual Awakenings.

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In this video (link below) I talk about the idea of being spiritually awake or awakening.  I touch on many different ideas about what this may mean in different philosophies and world views, including Christianity (John 3:3) talks about being ‘born again’ and how this relates to the Holy Spirit and the heavenly realms, especially the Kingdom of God, the awakening of the third eye and the Kundalini spirit and the 9 Chakras, Jewish mysticism, the Tree of Life and the 10 nodes and Norse mythology and the symbolism of the 9 realms residing in the branches and roots of the world tree Yggdrasil and the significance of the Rainbow bridge and the wells.

Another video done. I know I have done 3 videos in quite quick succession but that’s just because I was making them all at the same time. It will probably be a while until my next one. But please watch, like, subscribe and share guys, especially my closer friends and family – I need your support. Thank you. And if you feel so inclined – comment on here or more importantly on You Tube – positive comments only please!

Video on Spiritual Awakenings

 

 

Do you Dream?

Published January 25, 2020 by Laura Crean Author

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I am posting the first video in a series that will be me talking about dreams.  Hope you like it guys.  Please share it around and subscribe to my You Tube channel.  If you know me, you know I am into my dreams.  I will follow up with a video on dreams in general soon.  This one has me telling you about a dream I had yesterday (Friday 24-01-2020).  It’s also a pleasant little walk along the promenade looking at a local landmark.

Video – Do you Dream?

Who Am I?

Published September 8, 2019 by Laura Crean Author
When I was 14 I wrote this little poem; I think many a teenager with your typical teenage angst will relate, and maybe a few adults as well: –
 
Why am I here on this planet of ours?
Why do I do what I do?
How come I make the choices I make?
Which door do I go through?
 
How did I get here?
Why was I born?
How do I know if I’ll see the next dawn?
 
How can I hear?
How can I see?
What is the reason?
And why am I me?
 
The questions we ask
we must answer ourselves,
if we can’t find them,
wait till life tells…
 
Well 32 years later and life has taught me a lot, but my life never made sense until I found Jesus or rather he found me; and all the confusion, fear, doubt and anxiety was washed away.
 
Today at church we had a guest speaker – Thomas Fretwell, and he spoke on the subject of identity. His book “Who am I” is next on my reading list – in today’s confusing world, not only do individuals suffer with identity crises but society does too. There are so many World views, philosophies, gurus, voices…
 
I know the voice I listen to – do you?
 
My identity is as a child of God. If you want to explore who you are and do a little soul searching, maybe this is a good time and place to start.
 
Who Am I by Thomas Fretwell
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God the Gardener

Published December 11, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

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I realise that I haven’t updated for a while,  so I just thought I would add this post to show some of my new paintings.  I will also be adding a post about  an Arts exhibition that I was involved in recently, so please look out for that.

A while back I posted about a dream that I had and posted what I thought God was speaking to me about in it.  You can look back at that post if you would like; it was entitled “The Reluctant Time traveller and the Orange tree in the Garden.” Just click the link below, read and come back here…

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Eventually I was inspired to paint some imagery from this dream. So here it is; it is entitled “God the Gardener.”

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I was also at that time looking at Genesis. So another painting I have completed recently is entitled “The Fall” and as you can see it is Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden.

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Lastly I want to share my most recent painting entitled “Blue Jay and Jacaranda” and it also was inspired by a dream; this was a dream that I had many years ago, over 20 years ago in fact. In that dream I was actually shown a little blue bird in the Tree of Life, which had every fruit possible in it ( I didn’t include the fruit in this  painting but it had the feeling of the bird in the tree. ) In the dream the bird told me what fruit to eat to bring me healing.  And it did heal me.

So, a little while ago I was ill with a strange vertigo bug and after having healing at church, which led to me being on the floor with the Holy Spirit working in my head ( my eyes behind my closed lids were going nineteen to the dozen and I knew God was healing me.)  This wasn’t an immediate healing, although I had no dizziness the next day, I did still have  it on and off for a while but I definitely felt the healing.  But after this healing I was reminded of the dream and took the fruit I had been told to have in that dream as part of my healing.  Then I painted this picture.

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I hope you have enjoyed looking at some of my new paintings and as you can see they are all very much to do with God the Gardener, who once walked with us in a garden that he created just for us!  He walked with us and talked with us and gave us the job of looking after the garden and everything in it.

Unfortunately we let sin into the garden which polluted it.  One day we will be given permission to eat from the actual tree of life once more; God really does want to walk and commune with us again as it was in  the beginning.

That snake Satan may have reached out to bruise the heel of Man but Jesus, though bruised has crushed that snake’s head once and for all and he will not enter the garden again.  I for one cannot wait to walk up that golden path and reach out to pluck the fruit from the tree of life and spend an eternity communing with God -my creator who from the beginning had amazing plans for us, his beloved children.

Wow! We just cannot imagine the amazing things in store for us in the garden our Heavenly Father has prepared for us.

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4 Poems and 4 Paintings presented to New Hope Church, Eastbourne.

Published August 29, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

Hi everyone.  Thank you to those loyal few who always follow my few and far between posts on here.  I would just like to post this video, as an end to the little Psalms series I presented to my church of 4 poems and 4 paintings after spending a lovely time in God’s presence through the Psalms.  Please enjoy my recitations and please share.

Thank you and God bless you all

❤️Laura❤

The Hand of God

Published August 18, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

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I see the hand of Jesus
At work in ALL he’s made.
He is reaching down from Heaven
– God’s glory will never fade!

“MY flesh and MY heart may fail me,”
Because I AM weak indeed!
But the LORD’S strength will be MY portion,
HIS strength is ALL we need.

“The Lord IS our refuge and strength,
An ever-present help in trouble;”
So when your fears are overwhelming,
PRAISE God! And his grace and mercy will double!

Reach OUT to the hand of Jesus –
Take hold of EVERY promise he has made,
For you can do nothing by your OWN strength,
As this WAS designed to fade.

But Glory, Hallelujah!
God is HIGH and lifted UP!
He IS above EVERYTHING –
So look up! Look UP! LOOK UP!

There is nothing in God’s creation
Visible or not,
No rulers or authorities are above him,
HE is above the lot!

He is ABOVE the foolish notions,
He is ABOVE every trouble, every trial,
Give him ALL of your devotions
Because the JOY of the Lord is your strength- so smile!

Holy! Holy! Holy! Is the Lord God almighty,
His Glory IS forever but it fills the Earth TODAY.
His Glory is in his Spirit,
So let him enter in YOUR heart, I pray.

Yes, the Earth is FILLED with his Glory,
In US, his CHURCH, in YOU;
HIS strength is made perfect in OUR weakness;
So let him Carry you through.

When you become aware of all your frailties,
Then let your strength come in through Christ,
And he will use YOU for his Glory;
WE ARE his Kingdom and his choice.

Laura Crean

 

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