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WHY should I label myself a CHRISTIAN?

Published May 6, 2015 by Laura Crean Author

Right now I feel like I am having to fight for my right to call myself a Christian. I feel God speaking to me recently through my interactions with others, so I am sharing.  Some people both Christians AND non Christians may not like it, but to be honest I don’t care. I am trying to get on with my own spiritual journey and I have had trouble over the years BELIEVE me trying to justify to MYSELF why I would want to be called a Christian; and so whilst I have been trying to explain my point of view to other people just lately – I feel it has just been God speaking to ME. Why should I label myself a Christian? This is what I have to say…

I think you are just focusing on that word far too much, you are worrying about it, obsessing over it. yes it is a label, it is a NAME – but it is just a word to describe the body of Christ – his people and – how you see yourself. You ARE you and God made you YOU, the individual. He gave you an individual fingerprint and an individual personality and he stamped HIS LOVE for YOU, your individuality on your heart. He died for YOU. And he wants YOU to come to him “just as you are” – as YOU are – he doesn’t want a carbon copy “Christian” He wants YOU with all your individual quirks and lovely self – but he wants you also to be a part of HIS “body” which is his people, his church – his “CHRISTIAN” people – a label WE give for the BODY AND BRIDE of CHRIST that sets us apart as his most special, beautiful people that he has called INDIVIDUALLY through each of our hearts. We need to have a name to link us to God and what better name than that of the one who gave his life so that you might live forever! I am pouring all of this out of my heart and I feel like it is God writing this right now. I feel maybe he would be afraid that you are missing the point! The point is Jesus. We are not Jews, we are not Muslims, we are not Buddhists, we are not New-~Age crystal worshippers – we might understand about where some of this stuff is coming from but we can see it as being a part of the stuff that goes on in the physical world that God says – yes it’s all real, it’s all valid as in symbolic for certain things but don’t worship it – worship me through my son who I have given for YOU so that you will know how special YOU are to me. We are not all those other groups – those labels – we are CHRISTIANS because we are in CHRIST we are re-born in his image. I can’t keep going round and round trying to make you see through my eyes – I want that label – I WANT to be a Christian; I don’t want to be a Jew like my Mum’s family, I don’t want to be a Buddhist BUT I understand where my Mum is coming from because the old ways LED to the new ways, the NEW testament – that Jesus is the way, the truth, the LIFE. I understand the ways of Buddha and I think Jesus did too; so I meditate as I have always done, but now I meditate with scripture in my heart so that I can close my eyes and meet God in that quiet place, really go inside myself and come into his presence. I understand about the UFO and alien culture and I follow what’s going on there because I believe it is leading to the end days and they are part of the angelic battle – but I don’t worship them, I worship Jesus for saving us from the devil’s plan! To lead us away from God! So I call myself a Christian – a name Jesus would not have called himself – he was a Jew but he said the old ways were DEAD which is why he had to die, to bring us a new way THROUGH HIM and yes we probably could have labelled that Jesus movement in any way – but WE – his church, his BODY labelled it after his name so that we would always remember that through CHRIST EVERYTHING is possible and only through him can we live FOREVER! If you don’t believe that then I’m just spitting words into your face and not into your heart and I can do no more to say how I feel about it. This is how I feel and how I feel GOD is talking to me and through me for YOU. But if you don’t want to label yourself as Christian that is STILL YOUR choice – nobody is going to hate you for it – I love you, God loves you, stop worrying about a LABEL a WORD and get on with getting to know HIM.


Faith – a walk of individual understanding

Published May 5, 2015 by Laura Crean Author

I don’t think I or any person of FAITH should have to keep battling with those who do NOT share that (PERSONAL) faith.  THAT is how arguments start, that is how wars start, that is how conflict and separation start.  And I just want peace and love – that’s all.  It is nobody else’s business what I PERSONALLY believe, therefore it is not my job to explain, convince or convert another in or to ANY FAITH!  If you have taken a vow as a Priest of any faith then you may disagree, but I am just me – I’m just a woman, with my own daily struggles, just a Mum, I like to think I’m an artist and like to use paint and words to create pictures but I’m not a Priest – I don’t WANT to preach to anyone!  I hate being preached TO –  LOL.  I like to learn and I like to study things that are in my heart to learn about and that includes the Christian faith and the bible even though my terrible memory doesn’t always keep that knowledge in such a way that I can pass it on to others without re-googling!  But that’s me, that’s personal, that’s not you whoever you are.  YOU have faith in what you want to have faith in and I will have faith in what I believe in.  I can only help what I am doing.  I know what I know, I believe what I believe and I have to LIVE with that.  YOU live with YOUR OWN convictions – whoever YOU are.  Yes I like to write about these things, I like to write poems and paint pictures sometimes – that is me expressing my thoughts, feelings, dreams, loves, faith, sharing my journey –  I don’t actually care if you like what I have to say or paint or create – OK – That’s up to you.  I don’t care.  I might feel a little sad about it because it comes from my heart but that’s OK because that’s my business too.  But even though I have started calling myself a Christian because that is my walk, my decision, my faith, it doesn’t mean I hate anyone who doesn’t agree with me or follow me – of course not!  I love you all (especially my friends and family) and I am still interested in hearing about, learning and understanding all other points of view, scientific principles and faiths, because they are all ways of looking at the world and we are all human beings living in this world together.  I want to understand what others believe about their place in the universe and I want others to understand what I believe about my place in the universe – But – we can’t all understand everything – because we are all INDIVIDUAL.  We all have a different starting point, we all have a different perspective, we all see the world through our own eyes, with our own experiences, in our own language, from our own generation, from our own struggles and victories.  And because of this – faith should be just that – faith – a personal understanding – and what is understanding? – a thought – and what is a thought? An insubstantial thing that comes from an image in the mind that only that individual mind can make sense of.  So… I will continue my own walk of faith and I encourage you all to continue to make your own individual walks in life and I look forward to sharing ideas, thoughts, feelings, dreams etc. with you all – my dear friends and family who I have chosen to talk to through this media.  If you don’t like my decisions, well I can’t help that, I can only help my own decisions and I will leave your decisions up to you.  But I still love you all, I still want to talk to you and listen to you and spend time with you – Peace be with us all.

❤ xXx Laura xXx ❤

The World Tree – by Laura Crean – Day 6 Poem for NaPoWriMo 2015

Published April 8, 2015 by Laura Crean Author

The World Tree

Symbolism, God’s Divine language – My dream of last night 30th March 2015

Published March 31, 2015 by Laura Crean Author

I haven’t posted any dream interpretations in here for a while so today seems the perfect time to do that because it is related to my posts on Divine Symbology I am posting this alongside those posts because I thought it was important to do so.  I don’t know if anyone gets anything out of all this other than me.  I can understand that I probably come across as a bit strange, but this is my way of understanding my own thought processes and I like to share it all because you never know when you might connect with someone else who has similar thoughts.  We all need others to relate to us don’t we?

I have to say that when I woke up at 4am this morning on the tail end of this dream, my initial thoughts were that it was a really scary dream.  I thought to myself “No!  That’s horrible Why would I be dreaming such a thing?  But now I have looked at the symbolism behind it it makes sense to me.  So now I will write the dream and then the interpretation.

The Dream

I was in my house (that wasn’t my actual house but in the dream it was my house) and I heard a noise coming from the chimney.  It was a baby girl about a year old.  Anyway, for some strange reason it terrified me that she was there and I tried to kill her by striking at her chest with a hollow metal pipe, which left a circular impression in her chest.  I thought she was dead and I was horrified that I had killed her.  I threw the bloody pipe in the bin and then tried to wrap up her body in a sheet and was contemplating how I was going to dispose of the body when I realised that she was actually alive.  At first I was horrified that she was alive and possibly suffering but couldn’t imagine myself now killing her again to stop the suffering, so I wondered how I was going to get her back to her mother to be healed and get away with her attempted murder.  And then I thought I would just say that when she fell down the chimney she had landed on the pipe that was propped up there and that is how she got the injury.

I was sick with guilt of what I had done and her pain but I didn’t want her to die.  I carefully wrapped her and held her close to me saying I was sorry over and over to her and that I knew what I had done was evil and that I loved her and hoped she could forgive me one day.  I knew she was too young to talk properly and didn’t think she would tell her mother what had really happened.  I carried her round to the house next door to tell her mother she had fallen down my chimney and found the house unexpectedly unaware of her disappearance.  The old man that was supposed to be watching her had fallen asleep and he blamed another younger man who was in his own room doing his own thing.  I could see the fire guard pushed out of the way, so I could see how the child had gotten to her chimney and crawled up it and then fallen down into mine.

The mother came home at that point and I told her we needed to get the little girl to the hospital quickly because of what had happened.  I told her she was fine (and she was, she was awake and aware and the injury wasn’t as severe as I had at first thought) but you could see the circular injury made by the pipe.  Obviously horrified and in shock, the mother ushered me to the car so we could drive straight to the hospital.  I just held on tight, cuddling and comforting her all the way to the hospital and then the mother took her and she was put into a hospital bed.  I turned to leave happy that she was OK and was being cared for now and getting treatment  and that she would make a full recovery, when all of a sudden she fell out of bed and died.  I remember feeling absolute horror and knew that I had killed her; I was absolutely sick with guilt and woke up crying thinking “No!  God, why would you show me this in a dream?”  I just lay there thinking no.1 what a horrible, horrible dream and no.2 Thank God it was only a dream and I hadn’t really just committed a murder of an innocent child in cold blood.

dream imaagery

A Tentative attempt at an interpretation

The first thing that struck me was the fact that my investigations into symbolism yesterday had led me to the conclusion that the circle represents God, so the circle shaped incision in the girl’s chest  just screamed out at me that it represented God and the fact that it was over her heart must represent’s God’s love – to me the heart, the heart chakra represents Jesus.

The pipe and the chimney are both interesting symbolic images.  The house is always the self, so the chimney can be seen as an extension of the self, a channel for cleansing (think of smoke going up a chimney).  However the child (that vulnerable, innocent aspect of myself) went both up her chimney and then down into mine.  To me this could be seen as a transition of channelling new aspects of myself.  By killing the child I am attempting to kill off old attitudes.  However I think it is like dying and being born again at the same time.

The pipe represents a conductor of energy (think of each being as like a pipe with energy flowing through them) it represents the ability to tap higher levels of power and connect conscious and unconscious aspects of self.  In the context of this dream I see it as God stamping himself (his image – as represented by the circle) into my heart – therefore awakening me to accepting Jesus into my life anew as my new attitude or an awakening or affirming attitude.  It is like God saying to me – you are killing off old attitudes through me.  But the child continuing to live at that time, even with the circular injury (God’s mark) and I think this was Jesus’s way of telling me he is the ‘living God’ and he is living in me, in my heart.

The fact of the girl dying in the end was I believe God telling me that the old me (my attitudes and my sins) are now dead.  The hospital represents a healing centre.  There were 3 buildings or houses in this dream – the child’s, mine and the hospital.  I think the hospital represents the House of God and so healing makes sense.  Possibly they represent the 2 trilogies; Mind, Body and Spirit – Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

All the people in this dream of course represent aspects of myself.  I think the old man represents  the rational, intellectual, wise (knowledge based) aspect of my psyche.  He was asleep, leading to the child (the innocent, vulnerable aspect) to escape.  Perhaps those thoughts and attitudes that I had thought were wise were just holding me back, keeping me a prisoner (trying to rationalise everything).  I was asleep and needed to be awakened and reborn as the baby (the chimney being the birth canal) Here is another trilogy – the old man, the young man and the baby girl.  I’m not sure how the mother fits into this dream.  I certainly took her baby away from her and felt nurturing towards her after the initial violent act.  Maybe it is a way for me to nurture myself (self soothing) telling myself to stop beating myself up about everything and just accept God’s love and to love myself.  I was glad the mother was driving to the hospital so that I could hold the child close to me in the car.

The car is my vehicle through life.  I wasn’t sure how that related but considering that I was being driven to the hospital and since all the people in the car (another trilogy) – Mother, me, baby girl – were me – I was being taken to healing, to the House of God.  All aspects here were feminine leaving the earlier male aspects behind.  Now the feminine, intuitive, creative, spiritual aspects are being brought together in the hospital for God to tend to.

I hope that all makes sense to the reader and I hope you can see once again how powerful symbolic language is to connect us to the divine nature of the universe (it is God talking to us through symbolism – his divine language)

Epic Movies to Look out for in 2014 Part Four – NOT for the kids

Published April 17, 2014 by Laura Crean Author

More Monster Movie Mayhem – they’re coming back to haunt us…

Jurassic Park 4

Avatar 2

The Last Airbender 2

Mermaid: A Twist on the Classic Tale

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Resident Evil 6

Monsters: Dark Continent

and you can’t have monster movies without  Vampires and Werewolves…

Vampire Academy



Finally – I’d really like to see this one made so let’s all give it a thumbs up…

Land of Giants

Epic Movies to look out for in 2014 Part Two (not for kids – nope!)

Published April 17, 2014 by Laura Crean Author

There are so many mysteries in this world…



Son of God

Seventh Son


I don’t usually like horror movies, but you know, it has Karen Gillan in it, and I’m a Doctor Who fan, plus it looks good, creepy, scary, gonna need a cushion, but good…

Alien Abduction
OK Another one that needs a cushion to hide behind and possibly the light on…


Some mysteries are meant to be left alone…

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