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Is life just a game? Just a series of lessons? Or is there more to it? Do I need to dig deeper?

Published May 28, 2020 by Laura Crean Author

Is life just a game? Just a series of lessons? Or is there more to it?  Do I need to dig deeper?

If you are a Christian or a gamer or maybe a Christian gamer or just part of the game of life – read on… (also included if you follow the links Sonic the Hedgehog Trailer and other gaming and book links)

It’s OK to say I have experienced a lot of pain and trauma in my life and I need to learn from it and grow, but what does that look like?  If we have to learn something then that implies that the pain and trauma, the suffering and hardship is a teacher, right?  Well, the thing with having a teacher is, you are and I am the students.  And at some point the student has to learn, grow up and move on and become the teacher – so what does that look like?

Well, as I said, if the teacher is pain and suffering, well that’s what the teacher looks like!  That paints a picture in my mind of Jesus on the cross.  And if life is just like a game and a series of lessons to be learned, then life also is a teacher, right?  We are all in this together – the teachers teaching the students and the students becoming the teachers and so the cycle continues…and life may be a game but we are all characters in that game – without the characters, there is no game and the game would have no meaning.

This week I have been at home on annual leave, trying to take stock a little.  Trying to look inwards and see where I am going.  I started off the week worrying about all the things I thought I should be doing while I had the ‘time’ – gardening, house hold chores, writing my novel, catching up with art projects, paying bills…and the list went on!  Until I felt like it was more stressful to be not out working that actually out working.  So I stopped that and I can’t get that lost time worrying back but I can learn from it.

Now, it’s helpful to have metaphors to use to look at ourselves and our journeys, and I’ve used those metaphors in my art and writing as all artists do.  ‘The Realm of the Purple Dragon’ was a way for me to express myself in a time when I needed some healing.  “There is a time and a season to everything under heaven.” Ecclesiastes 3:1 – It’s just a children’s book.  A fun, I think clever, light-hearted story for children (for my inner child who needed it at the time).  And aren’t we all just children at heart?

Lately I have been thinking of just abandoning all the creative stuff that I try to ‘put out into the world’ and just focus writing my blogs as a way to talk to my children.  Sending them to them as personal emails, because I have come to the conclusion that this is all that matters at the end of the day after all – our connection to our children.  And in the same way, our connection to our Heavenly Father as his children!  Because as much as we want to think that we make a huge impact on the world and the global consciousness and effect change on a grand scale by our efforts – that’s just our egos talking.  Maybe a very few do have some impact, but in the most part we are all just tiny parts of a big machine.  We are all just players, programmed and running around the program doing what we have been programmed to do.  And unfortunately the world we are living in is computer gaming on steroids!

If you know me you know I like to learn from my dreams.  The symbolism I see in dreams and the world are a language that seems to communicate to me.  I like to think it is a conversation I have with my creator, and prayer I have found, for me anyway, certainly does get responses or answers, some answers are more profound than others, and sometimes it is loud and clear but more often than not it is harder to hear.  But I continue listening all the same.  Well last night I dreamed I had these huge embarrassing hairs on my chin – which does happen by the way, but these whiskers or hairs in the dream were huge, like hedgehog spines!  Bear with me, this is all related to the game metaphor, I swear…

Recently, last week actually, I watched the new Sonic the Hedgehog movie because when I was in my twenties and a young mother, that was the game we played with our children; apart from Spyro, which is what inspired ‘The Realm of the Purple Dragon’.  But sonic was harder to play in a way, even though it was a simple concept, because it is a fast game.  You have to think on your feet as it were and make quick decisions with obstacles.  It is essentially a race.  You run around like a loony collecting gold rings and trying to get to the end as quickly as possible.  But with that fast pace game (another metaphor for our fast paced living perhaps) you can’t slow down to look at the scenery – to observe the beauty of the artistry of the game’s background design.  And sometimes you also miss the hidden places where treasure is to be found!  Maybe that’s part of what the dream was trying to tell me; to slow down and smell the flowers so to speak.  To sit quietly and look for the treasure in this game of life; to talk to the kids, to read my bible and seek wisdom (God’s hidden treasure in his word) to re-charge my batteries and to have some fun; some joy and peace in the moments.

And what of the spines?  Those hard thorn like follicles of hair on my dream self’s chin?  What message is trying to be conveyed here?  Well, these spines represent a beard firstly.  So a beard, what does that conjure up in my mind?  Well, perhaps as we think of men as wearing beards, it must represent masculinity, strength, power and perhaps wisdom – as the longer you grow a beard, the older and wiser you should technically be!  The image of the statue “The Thinker” also springs to mind.  Stroking your chin or beard or leaning on your chin may be an indication of deep thinking; perhaps wisdom again?  Also hair represents a covering, a protection of vulnerability, more power!  –   To be honest I’m not entirely sure what this imagery is trying to tell me!  Maybe I am spending too much time running around like Sonic the Hedgehog trying to keep myself safe, looking too deeply at things?  Trying to do it all myself under my own strength –  maybe I need to look deeper?  After all those hard spines could be used as a weapon – so maybe that is my strength – my wisdom and power!  Well what do I consider to be wise?  Knowledge worth having?  The only knowledge and wisdom I consider of any worth is that found in the word of God. 

And so this week I am listening inwardly at that quiet conversation between my God and myself and paying attention to the signs.  He says, “stop trying to run around like a loony doing things under your own steam, you’ll only burn yourself out!  Remember that I am in control and have the controller in my expert hands.  After all I designed this game and I know where you are going, even if you don’t” and “I am for you not against you”.  “I want you to win!  And you will win.  It’s just a matter of letting me play out the game.”

So as God takes the controller and I run on under his steam not my own; I can sit back and look at the scenery, the awesome design that I am a part of and keep my eyes open for the hidden treasures as I go.  And as I learn the secrets of the game – become the teacher and pass on those little cheats, those little nuggets of wisdom to my children, perhaps I can pass them on to you too through my writing and my art.  That’s my power, the gifts that God has given me after all, so I shall power up and get on with it.  But not this week.  This week I’m on holiday in my garden – well that’s how you have to roll in this lock down world we are living in.  And yes, I will stop to smell the roses!

Dear God, it’s time for a reboot…

Published May 25, 2020 by Laura Crean Author

I hope you are all heeding the signs of the times!  Paying attention to those signs that help you to glimpse behind the curtain and see the hidden spiritual battles that are going on out there in the world.  I am seeing more and more of these, and so today, I thought I would share the kind of signs I am talking about.  Signs come not only in the physical world through the environment, social happenings and the such, and not only through dreams and visions, but through the media, the arts – signs are everywhere;  if we just wake up and pay attention to them.

I just watched a very interesting movie the other day, considering the times we are in, I thought.  And it was very reminiscent of other films in recent years, such as the Matrix and the Terminator, films about robots and artificial intelligence; It was called ‘Surrogates’ starring Bruce Willis.  I just thought it rang a bell; the similarities with the world we are living in today with this Coronavirus and everyone staying home, many very afraid now to go out in case they catch the virus.

In the film, everyone has a surrogate robot body out in the real world so that they can ‘stay safe’ at home, jacked up to this surreal, fake online life, with their robot bodies doing the donkey work outside.  And of course, they make their surrogate robots – their fake identities whatever they want them to look like – like a mask, hiding their true identities; most beautiful, perfect human dolls.  Like an extreme version of some people’s online profiles now, wouldn’t you say?  They look perfect and healthy while in fact their ‘jacked in’ bodies back at home get neglected.  It takes a cyber attack – a computer virus, to disable the surrogates in the end and bring their real, human bodies back out into the light of the day, so that they can feel and respond as humans once more.  Sounds like an end to lock-down to me!

The signs here are very clear, reflecting our current situation.  To me, the front line workers are like the surrogate robots;  like the Borg in Star Trek, they are masked up, their identities hidden, not as individuals, but of a collective – they are the underpaid, risk taking heroes being clapped by those ‘safe behind closed doors’ while the governments are enforcing the ‘jacked in’ life and trying to promote the start of a ‘new normal’ for the good of the collective – when there is, in fact, nothing normal about it!

Everyone’s at home glued to the daily Coronavirus news updates and hooked on an online world of Netflix, You Tube, Facebook and computer games and online shopping; hidden, unseen, only going out for food, exercise and medicine (all the things we need to keep healthy right?  Except it’s not, and our mental and spiritual health is carefully being manipulated).   Education being redefined so that what it will look like, is children isolated either at home, computer educated, or at school,  in little isolated social distancing pockets, being programmed by the ‘Big Brother’ ‘New World Order’ State to accept their new lot in life, and be vaccinated, chipped and tagged and given their little slave roles to play as long as they toe the line and be completely available to the state’s every whim.

Does it take a virus to wake up humanity?  To get us to unplug and look at the world we have been living in and ask, is this really how we want to exist?  Unplug people!  Open the windows and let the light in.  Step out and smell the fresh air!  Breathe it in!  Talk to your neighbours.  Hug your children.  Explore life.  And then maybe ask yourselves – what’s next?  Are we just going to go back to the way it was, polluting the planet, consuming everything in sight?  Are we going to accept the ‘new normal’?  Be controlled and manipulated even more by the pharmaceutical companies and by the Bill Gates and Elon Musks, The big banking families and the Trumps of this world?  Or is it time for a  reboot of the system?  A change in the programming?  What program are you running on?

That makes me think of the Windows operating system – there is an image of a window and a rainbow.  Everyone is flinging open their windows to obediently clap and whistle the “workers”, the “drones”, the “robots” – the NHS and other key front line workers, of which I am one!  Not much choice in the matter, I might add!  I mean, I love my job but do I get a choice of whether to risk my life or not?  No, of course not!  Just clap for me and stroke my ego and make me feel a little more inclined to go out and do my job, and I should feel proud to be doing it right?

Back to the windows – many of them have pictures of rainbows on them right?  The rainbow was a symbol – a sign – that God gave to Noah as a promise you know; a promise that he would never destroy the Earth by a flood again!  It is a symbol of ‘hope’!  And in this lock-down world we are living in many are using it as a symbol of hope, trust and thanks that we put in our medical workers, our NHS and Care Workers, Police, teachers, shop workers etc.  These people ARE essential to our daily lives, and yet they have no choice – it is all an illusion!  They aren’t financially secure most of them, they are on minimum wages, often working mothers; this is our robot, slave workforce, and I think clapping them and putting up rainbows is, quite frankly, insulting to them.

As a Christian, I would say, it is our hope and trust in God, through Jesus Christ that should be our focus in the times we are in.  I personally look to Christ.  He is the one who, like Bruce’s character in Surrogates or Morpheus and Neo in the Matrix, woke me up, who unplugged me from the system – the fake programming and gave me new eyes to see what a fake life I was living and what a fake world I was living in.  Sin had corrupted the hard drive making it difficult for individuals such as myself to function.

Even if you are not a Christian, I still say – unplug!  Become aware of the corruption, the manipulation, the social programming.  I asked God to step in, wipe the hard drive clean so I could start again afresh.  It is not through ‘works’ or the ‘workers’ that we are saved – but by faith in Christ.  Hit the save button now!  Turn to the creator of the original operating system and ask for a reboot, for yourself individually and for the world as a whole.  This new world order doesn’t need to be about controls and social distancing, being drugged, chipped and traced – it can be about love, joy, peace, true freedom in Christ and hope in a world originally made perfect but corrupted by the sin of man made greed and power.  Don’t let the pharmaceutical companies, the banks, the owners of the internet and the Elite in power isolate and control you – heed the signs people, wake up and unplug before we lose our humanity forever!

 

 

 

God the Gardener

Published December 11, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

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I realise that I haven’t updated for a while,  so I just thought I would add this post to show some of my new paintings.  I will also be adding a post about  an Arts exhibition that I was involved in recently, so please look out for that.

A while back I posted about a dream that I had and posted what I thought God was speaking to me about in it.  You can look back at that post if you would like; it was entitled “The Reluctant Time traveller and the Orange tree in the Garden.” Just click the link below, read and come back here…

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Eventually I was inspired to paint some imagery from this dream. So here it is; it is entitled “God the Gardener.”

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I was also at that time looking at Genesis. So another painting I have completed recently is entitled “The Fall” and as you can see it is Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden.

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Lastly I want to share my most recent painting entitled “Blue Jay and Jacaranda” and it also was inspired by a dream; this was a dream that I had many years ago, over 20 years ago in fact. In that dream I was actually shown a little blue bird in the Tree of Life, which had every fruit possible in it ( I didn’t include the fruit in this  painting but it had the feeling of the bird in the tree. ) In the dream the bird told me what fruit to eat to bring me healing.  And it did heal me.

So, a little while ago I was ill with a strange vertigo bug and after having healing at church, which led to me being on the floor with the Holy Spirit working in my head ( my eyes behind my closed lids were going nineteen to the dozen and I knew God was healing me.)  This wasn’t an immediate healing, although I had no dizziness the next day, I did still have  it on and off for a while but I definitely felt the healing.  But after this healing I was reminded of the dream and took the fruit I had been told to have in that dream as part of my healing.  Then I painted this picture.

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I hope you have enjoyed looking at some of my new paintings and as you can see they are all very much to do with God the Gardener, who once walked with us in a garden that he created just for us!  He walked with us and talked with us and gave us the job of looking after the garden and everything in it.

Unfortunately we let sin into the garden which polluted it.  One day we will be given permission to eat from the actual tree of life once more; God really does want to walk and commune with us again as it was in  the beginning.

That snake Satan may have reached out to bruise the heel of Man but Jesus, though bruised has crushed that snake’s head once and for all and he will not enter the garden again.  I for one cannot wait to walk up that golden path and reach out to pluck the fruit from the tree of life and spend an eternity communing with God -my creator who from the beginning had amazing plans for us, his beloved children.

Wow! We just cannot imagine the amazing things in store for us in the garden our Heavenly Father has prepared for us.

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4 Poems and 4 Paintings presented to New Hope Church, Eastbourne.

Published August 29, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

Hi everyone.  Thank you to those loyal few who always follow my few and far between posts on here.  I would just like to post this video, as an end to the little Psalms series I presented to my church of 4 poems and 4 paintings after spending a lovely time in God’s presence through the Psalms.  Please enjoy my recitations and please share.

Thank you and God bless you all

❤️Laura❤

The Hand of God

Published August 18, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

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I see the hand of Jesus
At work in ALL he’s made.
He is reaching down from Heaven
– God’s glory will never fade!

“MY flesh and MY heart may fail me,”
Because I AM weak indeed!
But the LORD’S strength will be MY portion,
HIS strength is ALL we need.

“The Lord IS our refuge and strength,
An ever-present help in trouble;”
So when your fears are overwhelming,
PRAISE God! And his grace and mercy will double!

Reach OUT to the hand of Jesus –
Take hold of EVERY promise he has made,
For you can do nothing by your OWN strength,
As this WAS designed to fade.

But Glory, Hallelujah!
God is HIGH and lifted UP!
He IS above EVERYTHING –
So look up! Look UP! LOOK UP!

There is nothing in God’s creation
Visible or not,
No rulers or authorities are above him,
HE is above the lot!

He is ABOVE the foolish notions,
He is ABOVE every trouble, every trial,
Give him ALL of your devotions
Because the JOY of the Lord is your strength- so smile!

Holy! Holy! Holy! Is the Lord God almighty,
His Glory IS forever but it fills the Earth TODAY.
His Glory is in his Spirit,
So let him enter in YOUR heart, I pray.

Yes, the Earth is FILLED with his Glory,
In US, his CHURCH, in YOU;
HIS strength is made perfect in OUR weakness;
So let him Carry you through.

When you become aware of all your frailties,
Then let your strength come in through Christ,
And he will use YOU for his Glory;
WE ARE his Kingdom and his choice.

Laura Crean

 

The Shepherd of my Soul

Published August 9, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

Another Psalms inspired painting and poem :-

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Today I am thankful for my Shepherd
Who leads me on my way.
I’m thankful for my Shepherd,
So I look up and say:-
“Lead on my Lord – I’ll follow,
I am your faithful sheep,
Lead on my Lord- I’ll follow,
I trust my soul you’ll keep.”

Yes I will follow faithfully
By those waters still and calm,
I will follow you to the ends of the Earth,
And even through the storm,
Or through the darkest valley
Where shadows make men fear –
Lead on because YOU’RE with me
And in YOUR light the path now clear.

And yes I may well stumble,
But I will never leave your side,
Because YOU are my protection and my safety,
My Lord, YOU are my guide.
How comforting to see that rod and staff,
Gently steer me back onto your path,
And even as a weapon –
No fearsome beast can pass!

So I can lay down now to sleep
In pastures green and lush
While you become the very gate!
– and so in you I put my trust;
And WHEN the WOLF comes calling,
With YOU I have no care,
You make my Spirit so secure
Just knowing that you’re there.

Lead on my Lord – I’ll follow,
I am the safest in your flock.
Lead on my Lord – I’ll follow,
With you there will be no shock
Because YOU protect me and direct me,
You always keep me near
And if I tire or I stumble
I have no need to fear…

…On your shoulders you will carry me,
Until I can walk again,
Because it is in your nature
And it is in your name;
So I will follow you, my Shepherd,
Lead me to your feast
Where I shall sit around your table,
And be at perfect peace.

So I will follow you, my Shepherd,
Lead me to your cup,
May it fill to overflowing
As I lean in to sup!

The enemy may try to trick me
And say my future ISN’T clear,
But he cannot steal my joy TODAY,
Because I know you’re here.

Laura Crean

The Story of God my Lighthouse

Published August 8, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

Another poem and painting from my ‘inspired by Psalms’ collection…

 

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I am in a battered boat
Drifting on tattered tides,
In the midst of a troubled sea
My destination hides.

The ocean roars about me
And splashes in my face,
My vision clouded by the storm
As darkness now gives chase.

I battle on through the windy wake
And row until my arms are weak,
Soon my strength will leave me
– safety I MUST seek!

Life is like that ocean,
Stormy, rough and tough to sail,
And lonely is that journey
When you’re battling through a gale.

And it’s hard to seek God’s presence
When the waves are driving you back,
It’s hard to look upon his promises
When your focus is your lack.

But when you see salvation
Is just within your reach,
God’s beacon is so beautiful,
His light so bright and rich!

That lighthouse is your protection,
It will be your shelter through the night,
Have confidence in its security
And not upon your plight.

God’s presence is your protection,
The stronghold of your life,
Have faith and trust he’ll guide you
And surround you in his light.

God IS that bright beginning,
He IS that cleansing light,
Let him fill you with his blessings,
Just keep him in your sight.

His light is his presence and his glory
And with him you can dwell,
Take heart upon the story
I’m trying here to tell;

Gaze upon the beauty
Of that lamp that guides you through –
Jesus is the light to follow
And HE is calling YOU.

Laura Crean

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