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Is life just a game? Just a series of lessons? Or is there more to it? Do I need to dig deeper?

Published May 28, 2020 by Laura Crean Author

Is life just a game? Just a series of lessons? Or is there more to it?  Do I need to dig deeper?

If you are a Christian or a gamer or maybe a Christian gamer or just part of the game of life – read on… (also included if you follow the links Sonic the Hedgehog Trailer and other gaming and book links)

It’s OK to say I have experienced a lot of pain and trauma in my life and I need to learn from it and grow, but what does that look like?  If we have to learn something then that implies that the pain and trauma, the suffering and hardship is a teacher, right?  Well, the thing with having a teacher is, you are and I am the students.  And at some point the student has to learn, grow up and move on and become the teacher – so what does that look like?

Well, as I said, if the teacher is pain and suffering, well that’s what the teacher looks like!  That paints a picture in my mind of Jesus on the cross.  And if life is just like a game and a series of lessons to be learned, then life also is a teacher, right?  We are all in this together – the teachers teaching the students and the students becoming the teachers and so the cycle continues…and life may be a game but we are all characters in that game – without the characters, there is no game and the game would have no meaning.

This week I have been at home on annual leave, trying to take stock a little.  Trying to look inwards and see where I am going.  I started off the week worrying about all the things I thought I should be doing while I had the ‘time’ – gardening, house hold chores, writing my novel, catching up with art projects, paying bills…and the list went on!  Until I felt like it was more stressful to be not out working that actually out working.  So I stopped that and I can’t get that lost time worrying back but I can learn from it.

Now, it’s helpful to have metaphors to use to look at ourselves and our journeys, and I’ve used those metaphors in my art and writing as all artists do.  ‘The Realm of the Purple Dragon’ was a way for me to express myself in a time when I needed some healing.  “There is a time and a season to everything under heaven.” Ecclesiastes 3:1 – It’s just a children’s book.  A fun, I think clever, light-hearted story for children (for my inner child who needed it at the time).  And aren’t we all just children at heart?

Lately I have been thinking of just abandoning all the creative stuff that I try to ‘put out into the world’ and just focus writing my blogs as a way to talk to my children.  Sending them to them as personal emails, because I have come to the conclusion that this is all that matters at the end of the day after all – our connection to our children.  And in the same way, our connection to our Heavenly Father as his children!  Because as much as we want to think that we make a huge impact on the world and the global consciousness and effect change on a grand scale by our efforts – that’s just our egos talking.  Maybe a very few do have some impact, but in the most part we are all just tiny parts of a big machine.  We are all just players, programmed and running around the program doing what we have been programmed to do.  And unfortunately the world we are living in is computer gaming on steroids!

If you know me you know I like to learn from my dreams.  The symbolism I see in dreams and the world are a language that seems to communicate to me.  I like to think it is a conversation I have with my creator, and prayer I have found, for me anyway, certainly does get responses or answers, some answers are more profound than others, and sometimes it is loud and clear but more often than not it is harder to hear.  But I continue listening all the same.  Well last night I dreamed I had these huge embarrassing hairs on my chin – which does happen by the way, but these whiskers or hairs in the dream were huge, like hedgehog spines!  Bear with me, this is all related to the game metaphor, I swear…

Recently, last week actually, I watched the new Sonic the Hedgehog movie because when I was in my twenties and a young mother, that was the game we played with our children; apart from Spyro, which is what inspired ‘The Realm of the Purple Dragon’.  But sonic was harder to play in a way, even though it was a simple concept, because it is a fast game.  You have to think on your feet as it were and make quick decisions with obstacles.  It is essentially a race.  You run around like a loony collecting gold rings and trying to get to the end as quickly as possible.  But with that fast pace game (another metaphor for our fast paced living perhaps) you can’t slow down to look at the scenery – to observe the beauty of the artistry of the game’s background design.  And sometimes you also miss the hidden places where treasure is to be found!  Maybe that’s part of what the dream was trying to tell me; to slow down and smell the flowers so to speak.  To sit quietly and look for the treasure in this game of life; to talk to the kids, to read my bible and seek wisdom (God’s hidden treasure in his word) to re-charge my batteries and to have some fun; some joy and peace in the moments.

And what of the spines?  Those hard thorn like follicles of hair on my dream self’s chin?  What message is trying to be conveyed here?  Well, these spines represent a beard firstly.  So a beard, what does that conjure up in my mind?  Well, perhaps as we think of men as wearing beards, it must represent masculinity, strength, power and perhaps wisdom – as the longer you grow a beard, the older and wiser you should technically be!  The image of the statue “The Thinker” also springs to mind.  Stroking your chin or beard or leaning on your chin may be an indication of deep thinking; perhaps wisdom again?  Also hair represents a covering, a protection of vulnerability, more power!  –   To be honest I’m not entirely sure what this imagery is trying to tell me!  Maybe I am spending too much time running around like Sonic the Hedgehog trying to keep myself safe, looking too deeply at things?  Trying to do it all myself under my own strength –  maybe I need to look deeper?  After all those hard spines could be used as a weapon – so maybe that is my strength – my wisdom and power!  Well what do I consider to be wise?  Knowledge worth having?  The only knowledge and wisdom I consider of any worth is that found in the word of God. 

And so this week I am listening inwardly at that quiet conversation between my God and myself and paying attention to the signs.  He says, “stop trying to run around like a loony doing things under your own steam, you’ll only burn yourself out!  Remember that I am in control and have the controller in my expert hands.  After all I designed this game and I know where you are going, even if you don’t” and “I am for you not against you”.  “I want you to win!  And you will win.  It’s just a matter of letting me play out the game.”

So as God takes the controller and I run on under his steam not my own; I can sit back and look at the scenery, the awesome design that I am a part of and keep my eyes open for the hidden treasures as I go.  And as I learn the secrets of the game – become the teacher and pass on those little cheats, those little nuggets of wisdom to my children, perhaps I can pass them on to you too through my writing and my art.  That’s my power, the gifts that God has given me after all, so I shall power up and get on with it.  But not this week.  This week I’m on holiday in my garden – well that’s how you have to roll in this lock down world we are living in.  And yes, I will stop to smell the roses!

Awesome products featuring my Artwork

Published August 14, 2019 by Laura Crean Author

Hello everyone.

I have just recently discovered a cool website that will put my art onto lots of different products such as cushions, phone cases, clothes as well as on wall art and even home furnishings like bedspreads. It is very satisfying to see my designs on these products and it would be lovely to know people were buying my artwork in some form. The only trouble is, much like trying to self publish my books, I don’t seem to be able to generate any traffic to my sites. Please check out my artwork on redbubble.com and my books on Lulu.com And just as importantly, please share your enthusiasm of my creative endeavours with your own followers and friends as this will help me to gather some interest in my work. Thank you. Here are some links to my work and some examples of the products…

https://www.redbubble.com/people/lauracrean?ref=side-nav-account&asc=u&fbclid=IwAR0s2vkRYhiQIZLjSDrszmd_GfHHa1E7ZaY5ugpSLl7CQTqRmglRfJfwizg

http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/LauraCrean?fbclid=IwAR0uaon-nCf_3JnvM8ft3I0R4ILJYveiOGgnfbj8rGHzFBDQwj7W276RQfE

Pretty Collage Cat throw cushion on Red Bubble

Pretty Collage Cat Cushion on Red Bubble

The Fall Leggings on Red Bubble

The Fall Leggings on Red Bubble

A Little Piece of Heaven Canvas Print on Red Bubble

A Little Piece of Heaven Canvas Print on Red Bubble

Pretty Boy dress on Red Bubble

Pretty Boy Dress on Red Bubble

Oh God my Rock Acrylic Block on Red Bubble

Oh God my Rock Acrylic Block on Red Bubble

The Realm of the Purple Dragon Paperback

The Realm of the Purple Dragon Fantasy novel (paperback) available on Lulu.com and Amazon.

Vision paperback

Vision – Space Between the Universes.  Poetry and Prose (paperback) available on Lulu.com and Amazon

1 Little Dragon Alphabet Adventure1 Little Dragon Shape Challenge1 Little Dragon Josh and the Patchwork EngineRebeccas Ruby RingGolly Gobble

And don’t forget my 1 Little Dragon Nursery books and infant story books to help you teach your little ones numbers, letters, shapes, colours and animals and to have adventures in fantasy.  These books are also set in the Realm of the Purple Dragon.

Thank you for showing an interest in my creative endeavours and please do buy some of my work and share my links around as I would just love to see people enjoying my visions through my art, stories and poetry, and don’t forget to come back here or find me on Facebook and tell me what you think of my art and writing and also review the books on Amazon and Lulu and Red Bubble.  Thanks guys – love you all and keep creating…

 

4 Poems and 4 Paintings presented to New Hope Church, Eastbourne.

Published August 29, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

Hi everyone.  Thank you to those loyal few who always follow my few and far between posts on here.  I would just like to post this video, as an end to the little Psalms series I presented to my church of 4 poems and 4 paintings after spending a lovely time in God’s presence through the Psalms.  Please enjoy my recitations and please share.

Thank you and God bless you all

❤️Laura❤

The Shepherd of my Soul

Published August 9, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

Another Psalms inspired painting and poem :-

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Today I am thankful for my Shepherd
Who leads me on my way.
I’m thankful for my Shepherd,
So I look up and say:-
“Lead on my Lord – I’ll follow,
I am your faithful sheep,
Lead on my Lord- I’ll follow,
I trust my soul you’ll keep.”

Yes I will follow faithfully
By those waters still and calm,
I will follow you to the ends of the Earth,
And even through the storm,
Or through the darkest valley
Where shadows make men fear –
Lead on because YOU’RE with me
And in YOUR light the path now clear.

And yes I may well stumble,
But I will never leave your side,
Because YOU are my protection and my safety,
My Lord, YOU are my guide.
How comforting to see that rod and staff,
Gently steer me back onto your path,
And even as a weapon –
No fearsome beast can pass!

So I can lay down now to sleep
In pastures green and lush
While you become the very gate!
– and so in you I put my trust;
And WHEN the WOLF comes calling,
With YOU I have no care,
You make my Spirit so secure
Just knowing that you’re there.

Lead on my Lord – I’ll follow,
I am the safest in your flock.
Lead on my Lord – I’ll follow,
With you there will be no shock
Because YOU protect me and direct me,
You always keep me near
And if I tire or I stumble
I have no need to fear…

…On your shoulders you will carry me,
Until I can walk again,
Because it is in your nature
And it is in your name;
So I will follow you, my Shepherd,
Lead me to your feast
Where I shall sit around your table,
And be at perfect peace.

So I will follow you, my Shepherd,
Lead me to your cup,
May it fill to overflowing
As I lean in to sup!

The enemy may try to trick me
And say my future ISN’T clear,
But he cannot steal my joy TODAY,
Because I know you’re here.

Laura Crean

The Story of God my Lighthouse

Published August 8, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

Another poem and painting from my ‘inspired by Psalms’ collection…

 

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I am in a battered boat
Drifting on tattered tides,
In the midst of a troubled sea
My destination hides.

The ocean roars about me
And splashes in my face,
My vision clouded by the storm
As darkness now gives chase.

I battle on through the windy wake
And row until my arms are weak,
Soon my strength will leave me
– safety I MUST seek!

Life is like that ocean,
Stormy, rough and tough to sail,
And lonely is that journey
When you’re battling through a gale.

And it’s hard to seek God’s presence
When the waves are driving you back,
It’s hard to look upon his promises
When your focus is your lack.

But when you see salvation
Is just within your reach,
God’s beacon is so beautiful,
His light so bright and rich!

That lighthouse is your protection,
It will be your shelter through the night,
Have confidence in its security
And not upon your plight.

God’s presence is your protection,
The stronghold of your life,
Have faith and trust he’ll guide you
And surround you in his light.

God IS that bright beginning,
He IS that cleansing light,
Let him fill you with his blessings,
Just keep him in your sight.

His light is his presence and his glory
And with him you can dwell,
Take heart upon the story
I’m trying here to tell;

Gaze upon the beauty
Of that lamp that guides you through –
Jesus is the light to follow
And HE is calling YOU.

Laura Crean

Oh God, my Rock

Published August 6, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

IMG_2256.JPGAfter a very blessed week spent with God on my week off work, immersed in the Psalms, the result was 4 poems and 4 paintings, which I presented to my church family Sunday via video ( Video now posted below).  I will share one poem and one painting every day this week.  I am not sharing them in any particular order .  This poem and painting are equally titled ‘Oh God, my Rock’:-

What am I but flesh
To lay out my life in portions?
Time and a half to this and that,
Like the Earth to its seasons…

But you, Oh God, my Rock,
The largest portion of all,
In you my seasons rest,
My soul lies still as the winter’s snow.

Each thought I partition off,
Like pebbles on the shore;
But you, Oh God, the largest Rock,
On you I rest my aching heart
And I am sure…

…sure, that every memory,
Every tear and every sigh,
Every moment of my life,
Though weathered by the tides,
Return to you, lapping gently
In the rhythm of YOUR heart;
And though my life, but a tiny drop
In the vastness of your ocean,
You add my tiny portion
To the whole – of your creation!

And you, Oh God, my Rock – YOU never weather,
You stand the test of time;
My Rock, YOU never crumble,
It is us who are but sands of time;
We can be Moulded into castles by your hands – I am yours Lord, please be kind.

What am I but flesh
That withers, rots and festers?
But you, Oh God, are the Rock that never changes;
You, Lord, that Rock,
Baked hard and warmed in Heavenly Glory,
You ARE that never-ending story,
That carves your children’s names on the tablets of your love,
As chords to your heart.
And together, there, stand firm forever,
A monument of hope,
That none can move and none can part.
Oh God, my Rock!

Laura Crean

Dreams – The Reluctant Time traveller – and The Orange Tree in the Garden

Published June 29, 2018 by Laura Crean Author

(Written at 2.30 AM)

I have just had the strangest dream. Very weird!. It involved Abraham Lincoln as a reluctant time traveller.  I saw him walk through this portal and explore other times – past, present and future.

Then there was something about him using a telescope that had a beam of light coming out of it, straight up into the sky.

Also there was something about him standing up in some kind of assembly (like a school assembly hall) talking about equal rights and talking about the fact that we are all products of our ancestry and basically  that we are all made up of  every different cultural and ethnic background.  That somewhere in our ancestry line there will be some distant relation who would have been of a different race, colour or creed to what we ourselves identify with and therefore we are all mixed race and should stop worrying about it in society and be more tolerant of everyone and each other – one people- one church?

The next dream I remember was something about a kitchen and the right appliances being used for the right job. First of all I was trying to move a freezer out of the room because it was in the way and so dangerous, but whoever was in the kitchen with me said I would get into trouble for moving it.. I said I didn’t care because it was dangerous where it was.  However it was also dangerous to move it because there were electric cables of other appliances in the way.  So where I wanted to move it to (which was out of the kitchen and in the hallway) was difficult and dangerous to get to.

Then I tried to fill up a large plastic juice beaker with water from my one cup machine but because it wasn’t the right container for the purpose, it basically spilled over into the base plate. I remember thinking ” that was dangerous!” Because I knew it was the wrong container for the job!

Ok so it is 3:47 A.M and I can’t go back to sleep because the symbolism of the dream keeps playing out in my mind and I feel I won’t be able to sleep until I write it down. Where to start?

Vision, transparency and forward thinking…

The reluctant time traveller, Abe Lincoln, with his portal time machine and telescope light beam; I feel this is to do with being forward thinking – vision – and then there’s the ‘following the light’ theme.

The fact that it is dealing with time – past, present and future, makes me feel that this is to do with the eternal properties of God – the eternal – he is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and his word never changes. So being in line with God’s word and will – the beam of light (God’s glory?) So having vision (looking through the telescope) being forward thinking ( alongside the time machine ) and lining up and following his eternal will that never changes.  That brings me to the assembly.

I feel this is once again about the eternal will of God for his children; looking at who is speaking (Abraham Lincoln). So just like the kitchen and the tools for the right job; he is the right man for the job. Let’s look briefly at his character – ( taken from Wikipedia);

Abraham Lincoln, born 12:02:1809. He was the 16th president of the United States of America. He was a statesman and lawyer.  He was assassinated and died 15:4:1865. He was a very tall, unusual looking man, , loved his King James Bible, having read it cover to cover time and again.

Abe Lincoln quotes; “Government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the Earth,”

“A house divided against itself cannot stand,”

“Whatever you are, be a good one.”

When I think of Abraham Lincoln, I think of the civil war, the Declaration of Independence and the abolishment of slavery. So like I said, I think this is about the eternal will of God for his children (i.e. The ancestry/genes/ the equality factor. That we are all God’s  children and should be like-minded, inclusive, fair, just, kind and considerate, compassionate etc.  Made me think of the last children’s church lesson involving 1 Peter 3:8. – ” Be like-minded, be sympathetic, love one another, be compassionate and humble.”

So,yes, being the right person for the job (not sure why I keep thinking of him as the reluctant time traveller though).

Going back to the kitchen and the right tools for the job i.e. The right container for the water (Holy Spirit). It was a large container and was overflowing (Psalm 23:5 – “my cup overflows”) but didn’t fit with the dispenser (Jesus) – i.e. Not lining up again with God’s will.

Also thinking of the hot water versus the cold freezer – being hot and cold? Cup and one cup machine not fit for purpose and the freezer not fitting in the kitchen. Not in line with God’s will again?

When I went back to sleep I had another dream. This dream was really special because it was an answer to prayer. First of all let me tell you why.

Last week I had a small dream on the end of another dream (can’t remember which one) but the small dream confused me because I thought maybe there was more to it that I couldn’t recall and that I didn’t understand what it was about!  The dream was simply that I was given a basket with pears in – 1 small pear and 2 really large, juicy, delicious looking pears.

I asked God to let me have the dream again, this time letting me remember it all, or else to help me understand what the dream means. So this is where this last dream last night comes in.

I dreamed I was walking through a garden. It was a garden belonging to a retirement home – the kind of manager run homes I often have clients in as a community care worker. However, this was the best retirement home you could ever want to live in; it was everything you could ever want to enjoy the rest of your life in and the garden was the best part – beautiful beyond any garden I had seen in any other retirement home.

As I walked through the garden I came to the most beautiful tree. It had 3 oranges on it (that I could see); there was one small orange on one branch and two huge, really delicious, juicy looking oranges on another branch. These two oranges were joined together.

The gardener was just beyond the tree and he smiled and greeted me as I approached the tree.  I told him how wonderful the oranges were and asked him if I could have the two large juicy looking oranges.  He said to me very seriously: “Only if you promise to eat them because they are too delicious to waste.” I promised I would because they looked so delicious. And that was it and I woke up.

The first thing that springs to mind is the tree (tree of life?) Then the 3 pieces of fruit both times (Holy Trinity?) I’m not sure why one is smaller than the other two or why the 2 oranges were joined together. The 2 large pears may have been joined together but I don’t remember for sure.  I also wonder why pears and oranges?

The retirement home and the garden I believe represent the Kingdom of Heaven and the promise and warning not to waste the fruit could be possibly lining up with God’s will again.  Taking hold of God’s free gift of salvation in Jesus Christ?  I suppose it’s as simple and as wonderful as that! What a fantastic and special message and answer to prayer.

Now lastly, joining that dream onto the kitchen dream earlier  and the Abraham Lincoln theme and I’m thinking of the quote ” by the people for the people”  it makes me think this is confirmation of my plan to produce a book for my church congregation for them and by them on the theme of spiritual food! LOL God is so awesome!

Monday 9th July 2018 Update :-

I meant to update this last Sunday but I just haven’t had the time.  So anyway, I’m still flying high after sharing 2 dream images with the church Sunday  morning and then finding out this was in line with the message from our visiting guest speaker – Bayo Babalola – the dream images I had already had about the fruit of the spirit and the tree of life and also the overflowing cup from my one cup machine. But it wasn’t until the morning before church (I had a shift at work) and as I was walking around God was telling me or giving me a clearer interpretation and putting in my heart to share. At the end of my shift I was feeling really sick with the heat. I didn’t know how I was going to make it through the day, go to church and work again in the afternoon – I was sick, dizzy, hot etc. But God said go to church and share my message through the dream.

I felt God was telling me that the importance of the large fruit and the overflowing water from the one cup machine was the same message – that his love through his Holy Spirit is just so abundant – a free gift –  and the joined fruit shows not only that we are in partnership with him but that we must be fruitful and multiply through his fruit – his abundant love.  Now the one cup machine cup being so big was showing me that it doesn’t matter how big the container (i.e us) – the container will never be big enough then to contain his love because it is so big, ever flowing and cannot be contained!  I just love this imagery – don’t you?

Then I helped upstairs with the children and that was brilliant but I missed the message downstairs. Then I went home ( still feeling quite heat exhausted by the way) I rested for a bit and thankfully got my afternoon shift reduced to just 2 clients but even that I found hard in the heat because I am not coping with the heat too well at the moment. I came home. We ate and I watched tv with my daughter for a while and fell asleep until 10.30. Then I watched the morning’s visiting speaker – and was blown away by God’s abundant LOVE – praise God❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ ❤️ Scroll down the wall to see the message you will NOT be disappointed.

Ok so fast forward to yesterday (Sunday 8th July) and we had another guest speaker – Rich Bowles. Once again blown away by the message but he also mentioned my dream vision and extremely eloquently linked it in with the message.  However it wasn’t until I went to link the video here – the second video underneath, that I realised his talk was about vision (the other theme of the dream above) so now I am just blown away by God’s amazing abundance of blessings and I am so honoured and humbled that he has shared this with me and continues to do so.

The blessings continued with amazing things coming out of the worship and prayer time yesterday evening and then I had more dreams last night, which I will share later.  Please watch the messages and I hope you will feel as blessed as I do by their wonderful content and see the links with my dreams.  Take hold of God’s free gift in Jesus Christ, be fruitful and have YOUR vision tested today.

God bless you all.

❤️❤️Laura❤️❤️

 

 

 

 

 

 

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