UPDATE – 11/11/2014
Well, the end of 2014 is looming, Christmas is around the corner and I wanted to just add a little note in here about the progress of my novels. To put it bluntly – there is no progress at the moment. I wish I could say I have stuck to all my deadlines and I am just tidying up all the loose ends but that is not the case. At the moment I am beginning to wonder if I will ever find the time and will to ever finish any of my unfinished novels.
I keep seeing little messages popping up left, right and centre about writers’ progress on their 2014 NaNoWrMo works and I shake my head and think – if only I could. Life yet again this year has gotten in the way and my mental health and daily life struggles as a single Mum trying to get off of benefits dominate my being. After another course of counselling in the summer I was starting to feel well enough again to face the world and try and get back on the horse and back into the rat race. Feeling inspired I wrote another kiddies book and illustrated it, started a college course and am attempting to start children’s Story Craft Workshops, so the novels have been put on the back burner once more. But as I once again start to feel like everything I do to make my creativity pay is just hijacked by the darker side of fate, my positivity today is at an all time low. My self-published books continue to not sell and the children’s workshops haven’t even begun to get going yet, with a mere handful of children finding their way to the Amazing crafts and creative writing activities I have on offer! But – I’m not going to spiral back into a full blown depression – I know I’m doing everything I can and that it isn’t about not trying, it’s just the way of the world. I shall continue to get up each day, get through it by feeding the children and myself, doing the college course I have started, continue trying to motivate myself enough to keep trying to make my children’s workshops work and get through the dreaded Christmas season. Next year – next year will be my year!
So I say to myself, keep going – keep going and when I have settled into my new routine I will MAKE time to progress on my novels. I WILL finish them – keep watching this space!
❤ Laura ❤